Plain text of Chapter Cxxx. Expostulation With Oneself
1291.
You see his heart is his alone:
O heart, why not be all my own?
1292.
'Tis plain, my heart, that he's estranged from thee;
Why go to him as though he were not enemy?
1293.
'The ruined have no friends,' they say; and so, my heart,
To follow him, at thy desire, from me thou dost depart.
1294.
'See, thou first show offended pride, and then submit,' I bade;
Henceforth such council who will share with thee, my heart?
1295.
I fear I shall not gain, I fear to lose him when I gain;
And thus my heart endures unceasing pain.
1296.
My heart consumes me when I ponder lone,
And all my lover's cruelty bemoan.
1297.
Fall'n neath the sway of this ignoble foolish heart,
Which will not him forget, I have forgotten shame.
1298.
If I contemn him, then disgrace awaits me evermore;
My soul that seeks to live his virtues numbers o'er.
1299.
And who will aid me in my hour of grief,
If my own heart comes not to my relief?
1300.
A trifle is unfriendliness by aliens shown,
When our own heart itself is not our own!